I have battled body and personality issues all my life. Ever since I can remember, I have been an extremely shy and introvert child, a girl who would have so much to say and so many ideas and views, but who would always stand quietly, listening to others, observing, and carrying on those discussions inside her head.
I found it difficult and even painful to speak in social gatherings, even in a classroom or in front of family and friends. I have faced many academic stumbles owing to this issue of mine. But even though I was always battling it, I knew it would hardly ever change. And it didn't change. I still am the same way, tongue tied, finding it hard to speak when in a gathering (maybe that's why I write so much??!!)
Things didn't really change, now that I have overcome those years. I still remain as shy and introvert, and as picky. I find it difficult to speak to strangers, and even to those I know or love. Put me in a closed group of only those I really feel close to and I can be the chatterbox you would wish would shut up. But that's just me.....I can be me, but provided I am with those who truly love or know me.
This was all the confusion that was happening inside me.
Now lets come to the confusion or image that was being created around me, or still is..